Meaning

Today I want to know the meaning of my life, which is lost by me in the crowd of world.
Why I am alive  only for eating food,wearing clothes, and sleep for whole night or God
wants any thing else from me. I am not able to think about it but my heart is not calm, may
be it is searching something, not any materialistic thing  it can be different from our daily
routine related any social site like woman condition in society. How and why
is treated  me and other same aged woman like garbage. Every girl when she got
married and come to her new home she is welcome  by everyone. when she become
 mother which is the most precious gift from God. She is ok but after that she become
waste and old thing and day by day she becomes waste and waste.Why now she is
not alive ,now she has no feelings no pain no personal identity or choice why she
can't show her feeling.Always she has to follow the orders of others. Why people
think that woman don't have brain ,she is foolish, she can't do anything. Only man can
do everything. He is always right, he can do anything and it will be right ,he never
be wrong.